Watching everybody else live theirs

Scribbling down my life here in this blog, where once I used to visit often, seems difficult these days. Nowadays everything has been narrowed down to 160 characters. But I don't want to miss my blog, so I will try to be here whenever it is possible and put all those life events in this magic box. So that we could came back at a later stage of life and revisit those footprints of us.
Days went by when I felt so happy and content, and confident that my life would be okay, and then as quickly as the feeling came it would disappear and I would feel sadness coming in again. I tried to find a routine that I could fit in to, so that I felt as through I belonged in my body and my body in line with this life. I want to stop wandering like a zombie, watching everybody else live theirs. Would like to spend remainder of April trying to get my life into some order. God Bless!

Holy God. Holy God. Holy Mighty One. Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us.

Its Good Friday! am trying to understand at what cost Christ has won our redemption. Just returned from my parish church after all the solemn ceremonies of Good Friday, the Adoration of the Cross, in the chanting of the 'Reproaches', the reading of the Passion. Also received the pre-consecrated Host. Today we should unite ourselves to our Savior, and must contemplate our own death to sin in the Death of our Lord.