Towards the end, for a fresh start...

Sometimes our life is too short to let the ones we love know that we really care. It is hard and time now is too short to let the one know that I really value. Yes, one more year passing by. But, the distance seems larger by each passing day. Can I do any justice to ma own feelings????? Why am I branded wrong??????? These questions come up sometimes to ma mind.

BTW, December as usual ready to go home with a year. After couple of days 2009 will say farewell. For last few days, had enough of gulping down the cakes....... Christmas was unique this time. Absence of bro for the first time made Christmas less spicy. Even the plan to make crib dropped due to that.

May be the one year experience has changed me a lot. I'm no longer known for ma frankness, instead for ma diplomatic approach. 2009 is full of memories, experience, and learning. And after all those, comes twenty ten which is going to be one of the crucial phases of ma life. Life is like a radio, u ought to hear whatever the station plays for you but, I wish if my life was like an I-pod so that I can shuffle based on ma choice...............no matter what, life moves on............

I LOVE U DECEMBER

Don't feel like am able to write. All the words are getting locked up in ma mind. Feels like I’ve got long way to go...............
I'm just too lazy to write now. The only reason why I'm filling up the gap is that I don't like the page to be blank. Each day is a memory and not filling up the blog for one day (or atleast once a week) makes me feel that I’ve missed a chance to revisit ma life at some point in the future.
What I really need now is some peace of mind. I know it’s hard to find any. Just a break from ma daily routine of hurry Barry to little more relaxing one, it is the truth i am loosing up. Now it’s hard to recollect how I multi-tasked things, sometimes missing out, energy I felt and those busy but cheerful moments.............
December is here, Jingles started sounding and am preparing for Christmas. I already started decorating ma house for Christmas, Would like to make a crib in the front. Christmas time is always something I love. But this time will miss my bro…
I started December by a camp at Nilumbur, Malappuram, where I did camping to learn Participatory Rural Appraisal, as a part of my social work training. It is a beautiful place to go for outing. Camping was superb, but don’t want to remember last hours when I was molested by Mr. Fever and was down. The days before that at camp was awesome, I enjoyed many moments starting from mock social mapping. I can’t forget those three group games conducted by our teachers. Hope the whole group enjoyed. The best thing that I enjoyed was the Team efforts. One day ma team worked until 3 am. It was the best time I had at camp. Saw people supporting each other and completing the duties at time.
If not, the people around me, I would have lost ma dreams and the will long before. At each stage of ma life I had people, giving me a hand to hold on to and I can't thank them enough. Life at Sanskrit University is also proving the same. Had some good friends in the beginning and when the relationship slow downed now I have new ones. Thank god.
It is always sad to remember that after five months all these birds will flyaway to their own destination. Each of us must start doing things to make rest of the days ‘cherishable’. Adieu…

STANDING BY THEM

I can't believe that am writing ma 21st post on this blog and I am thrilled. Let’s start with Sachin, soon after he celebrated his 20 years of international cricket, Tendulkar become first batsman to reach 30000 runs in international cricket. And when he pushed left-arm paceman Chanaka Welegedara of Srilanka to mid-off and hurried for a single, Tendulkar notched up his 43rd Test Hundred. He is the marathon man of Cricket. His passion for the game, even in 21st year, shows that, he has still a lot of fight and runs left in him. Am a fan of that great man not just because of his game, he is a gentleman, in and off the field. John wooden once said “Ability may get you to the top, but it takes character to keep you there.” Oh Mr. Tendulkar, you are a genius and definitely, an ‘Indian First’. We are proud of u man…

Nowadays am thinking and working hard for ma dream. It is now too close to ma hands. It is to see youth of ma parish standing together & holding hands on a platform. I am now in a new avatar at ma parish. I was active at ma parish couple of year ago. I played many roles there. But an action of mine took all those things from me. Why I left teaching at Sunday school is still haunting me and ma mind is in search for reasons and explanations for that. Anyway now am moving ahead, hauling lessons learned from ma mistakes.

I always try to keep my childishness. But I have certain principles too. At present am week because in certain situations am failing to stand by my principles. You can't stand by principles only when they’re convenient. It’s about standing by them when they could hurt you too.